Chapter 20: Wronged
Sesshomaru stared at Kagome as his eyes started to bleed red. She had no right to strike him like that when he was telling her the truth that it was foolish. Her mother was a woman of noble blood and wouldn’t have to work; she would just take care of her children and be thankful of the seed planted in her belly by the husband chosen for her.
Getting up, he left her there in the cave and went to walk in the forest. Gods, he was angry at her, but what could he do? He had taken her to improve their current relationship, but she continued to needlessly fight him for no reason at all. When he was far enough that from her that she wouldn’t hear, but close enough for him to listen and go to her if needed; he let his rage free.
As if he would allow his any of his children to become simple-minded. All of his children will be brought up the right way and raised to be intelligent beings that they were meant to be. Kagome had been tainted by the way of an amoral village and would change or have limited her contact with their children. It was not his desire to kept Kagome from their children, but it would be needed if they were to grow up into proper and true demons. He couldn’t allow her taint to stain his children, but he didn’t want to separate them from her as well.
His claws bit into the trees around him, destroying them in hopes of ridding himself of his anger and worry. He would have wished that she was a princess or a normal human at least; but then she wouldn’t be the Kagome that he cared for and desired. He didn’t know what to do.
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Nori walked down the hall, planning to greet the guests when holy powers suddenly burst out. All the demons in the palance felt and feared the sudden and great power; confused to what was happening Nori ran to it when she realized that it was coming from her rooms.
Mizuki was there taking a nap.
The holy power was flooding through the palace slowly from her rooms, it burned at her skin, but still she ran. Her granddaughter could be in danger or dead from the power and she would never be able to face Kagome or Sesshomaru again if that was the case. But she was surprised that to see that Mizuki was the power source of the holy power that was slowly flooding palace.
The power was overwhelming and shocking to find in such a young child, but that it was holy in nature made her see that more than Kagome’s eyes had been born in her sweet granddaughter.
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Kagome sighed before getting up, she got dressed before walking to the mouth of the cave; she stared at the forest before her eyes as she wondered what should be her next move. He was out there in the forest; she listened to his destruction and all she wanted was to run away from the hell that came from being near him. But her body refused to take the first step and forced her to stand there and listen to Sesshomaru’s rage.
Tear threatened to fall, but couldn’t. Her chest screamed in pain with her heart raging at the thought of him coming back and her being forced to take him into her body again. What was the answer, to run or to stay until Inuyasha came for her?
The thought of Inuyasha was the key that unlocked the cage that trapped her tears; she didn’t understand why he hadn’t come for her yet? Why was he taking his sweet time? He had to know that she had returned to this time and was looking for her, but he had never taken this long before. She could feel resentment and anger slowly burning to life inside of her because of him. It made her feel sick to know that resentment and anger were slowly burning in her as well as her only hope was to be saved by Inuyasha. It was her only hope if she was to escape Sesshomaru’s claws with all her children.
She had her powers back, but what good would they do when Sesshomaru could keep her child away from her. Kagome looked outside and knew that she needed to try and take the first steps to change this hell.
Without another thought, she stepped outside and walked away from the cave…though not too far. She to reach out and regain her old self; Kagome knew that the person that she was becoming was not a person that she wanted to be. She wanted the strength and heart that had burned brightly inside of her before all of this had started…she would not remain a caged bird that would sing for its master as he broke her wings over and over to keep it at his side.
She would break her cage and spread her wings no matter how broke they were, and she would fly to her freedom.
Sesshomaru held the power now, but she would take it back from him with all her might and strength both for herself and for her children. He had said that they were unfit parents for their daughter and the babies growing inside of her…but if you asked her, Sesshomaru was the only unfit parent between them. But then it often seemed that the nobles in this time were unfit parents when one thought of all the infighting that went come and come in every kingdom in the world.
Her children were Sesshomaru’s heirs and bargaining chips…their father would decide their futures without their consent if she didn’t take the power from him. Unlike Sesshomaru, Kagome knew her duty to their children to be a loving and caring parent that would always support them. After all, she already loved her children more than anything else in this world.
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Sesshomaru snarled when he realized that Kagome was outside the cave and stalked towards her as he tamed his rage the confrontation that was about to happen. He saw that she was sitting in a little clearing, the first thing that he noticed was that she was staring up at the sky. He stared at her, not understanding why she was staring at the sky like it was the most interesting thing in the world.
“Why are you staring at the sky?” He asked softly as he moved to sit in front of her, but Kagome didn’t turn her gaze away from the sky. He wanted to growl as he stared at her; she was beginning to make him feel like he was lacking when in truth, he provided for all her needs. “Why did you have to trap me in this cage?” She whispered quietly; Sesshomaru frowned at her question. He had trapped her in a cage? That was nonsense, she was outside with not a cage in sight and the armguards were no longer on her person. “I don’t understand…what cage do you think I have trapped you in?”
“You’ll never understand then.” She said softly before looking away from the sky to look at him. He stared at her, his mind stunned by her words. He would never understand? That was nonsense, one could stand any question or answer if they truly tried and with aid at their side. After all, he had done nothing wrong and her actions continued to anger him, yet he could do nothing about it since she carried his children and could not take punishment at the moment.
“Then you will explain it to me so that I understand it, Kagome.” He ordered in a controlled voice. She looked at him again, but instead of a blank face this time, there was a frown. “What am I to say, Sesshomaru? I’m sick and tired of saying the same thing you over and over. I don’t want to be at your palace, in your harem or have sex with you, but you refuse to hear me.” She snapped at him before moving to stand up and walk away from him.
But Sesshomaru had other ideas to her plans.
Grabbing her hand, he forced her to sit in his lap and caressed her cheek with his hand. “Why do you wish to leave my side? Have I not given you everything a woman could want or need? Have I not seen to your pleasure when I take your body in Heaven sessions? Have I not given you pleasure and children during our Breeding sessions?” Sesshomaru asked, wondering why she was being this way when he had done so much for her.
“Pleasure? You mean when you force my body to feel release and I lie there, waiting for you come and get off of me? You think I like that? Guess what Sesshomaru…I hate that because it feels hollow and disgusting to me. You also think that you give me everything that I need or want? How about our daughter? You keep her from me unless I do as I’m told like a child. What about my freedom as well? I’m trapped in your palace, in your harem and there are days were I feel like my mind is dying for the lack of use.” Kagome thought tears would run down her cheeks, but they didn’t come…it was like she had cried all the tears that she ever could.
Sesshomaru said nothing, thinking on her words and his actions as he felt his stomach twist inside of him. “You can’t give me what I want or need, Sesshomaru…but then neither could my grandfather or the man that my grandfather wanted my mother to marry. My father could and did though…he gave my mother everything she had wanted and needed when he died and he continued to do so after death. He gave her love, happiness, children and he even gave his life for her.” Kagome whispered the last part, thinking of the car accident that took her father’s life.
She remember how her mother had protected her with her own body and how her father had protected her mother, his wife the same way…only unlike her mother, who lived, he had not. “My mother wasn’t foolish for marrying the man that she loved, for marrying a man that gave her what she needed instead of doing what she was. She was brave for marrying the one that she loved and continues to love. She has never regretted defying our culture’s beliefs for that.” Sesshomaru thought on her words as that feeling in his stomach got worse and worse.
Ignoring the feeling, he picked her up and carried her back to the cave. Have her lie down on the futon since she had fallen asleep in his arms, he thought of what Kagome had said; was marrying or mating for love…truly so powerful? He looked at Kagome and thought of what she had given him and thought of what she had said about her mother.
Her mother had gained nothing of what she wanted or needed from her father or former betrothed and found it in a common peasant below her noble standing and rank. He was greatly above Kagome, a half-noble priestess with little training but great power. She was nothing, but a tool to breed children onto and to calm him of his lust, and yet she meant more to him than his own mate. The power and strength of her soul and heart made him admire her, her gentle and loving nature made him care for her, her talent and beauty made him lust for her, her will to never give up made him want to hold her and never let her go.
She gave him what he wanted and needed that he never found with his mate.
The thought of another touching her, her taking the seed of another into her womb, her swelling with another’s child instead of all it been him was too horrible and madding to thinking of. Yet all the Lords that he knew wanted her to take her and fill her with their seed, to have her grow with their children over and over until it lead to a painful death and a short life for her. It was not a life that he wanted for her and saw it as a reason to start his plans of becoming the ruler of all ahead of time. He wanted to protect her from all harm; he wanted to protect their daughter and the lives of the unborn children growing within her womb.
The thought of losing her clawed at him and made him want to lock her away in a…cage. Looking at her sleeping face, he wondered if he was beginning to understand what she had been talking about with the cage. Everything they had talked about almost felt old to him, making him wonder how many times she had repeated herself and he had turned a deaf ear to her words or not understood them.
He thought back to those times as he moved some hair out of her face.
The Physician screamed as he pulled his hand away to find that it had been purified, just like the midwife and the servants’ as well, Sessmaru’s mother moved away, concerned that she would be harmed by Kagome’s power as well. Nori was not surprised when her son, Sesshomaru burst into the room. “LEAVE!” He roared at everyone as Kagome curled herself into a ball, her power still going strong. Everyone, but his mother did as told and left without question.
He walked toward his mother and Kagome, his mind with the question of what was wrong and why Kagome looked full of pain. “Mother, what ha-“
“I DON’T WANT THIS! I WANT TO GO HOME!” Kagome shouted…her voice was so pained, her face hidden behind the black veil of her hair. Sesshomaru looked at Kagome’s naked body before looking at his mother, the look in his golden eyes told her everything that he planned to do. She got up and walked out, she needed to go and get a few things for her son since what was about to happen was a learning experience for Kagome.
“You are home, Kagome.” Sesshomaru told her flatly, he did not like this attitude that she giving him at the moment and he didn’t understand where it was coming from. Why was she being this way? Was she not happy about something? Or was Sakura being a problem for her again?
The salt of her tears were beginning to fill the rooms, and make him wonder where was the smile…she had been wearing one when she had deliver their daughter, but now she was upset. This was so confusing to him. “This is not my home, Sesshomaru…this is my cage. Don’t you get it, Sesshomaru…I’m trapped in this birdcage of your and I can’t get out, I can’t spread my wings and fly anymore.” She whispered as she slowly let her power sink back down. “This is not a birdcage…this is my harem, Kagome and you are my concubine. Do you not understand that I have given you a great honour? Do you not understand that you have nothing to worry about for the rest of your days? That I will always take care of you for being the mother of my children?”
“I don’t want the honour…I don’t care about worrying about the future or having you take care of me. I’m a human being, Sesshomaru with my own rights and dreams.” She hoped that Sesshomaru would understand her and let her go, she just wanted her baby and to be free from this place. She wanted to take her daughter and return to Inuyasha’s side, to forget that Inuyasha will never be the father of her little girl.
“No, Kagome…you are not a human being with your own rights and dreams. You are a human being that is born as property the moment your gender is revealed to all, and I will show you why.” Sesshomaru told her, it was clear to him that he needed to put Kagome into her place and help her understand that she was a woman, and that as a woman, the only happiness that she would find in this world would be at his side. She needed to get these stupid ideas that she had rights and dreams out of her head, and to understand that she had been given a place that most women would do anything for.
Nori had returned as quietly as she had left and with her were the things that she knew that her son would need to teach Kagome this lesson. Placing the tray on the ground beside Kagome’s futon quietly, she left again, hoping that Kagome would be better for it. Sesshomaru waited until his mother was gone before taking the tokkuri on the tray, he could smell the aphrodisiac with it. Taking a sip of it, he moved Kagome’s hair out of her face and forced her to kiss him, he forced the aphrodisiac down her throat; Kagome chocked on it a little and pushed Sesshomaru away from her.
Kagome soon her body react to Sesshomaru’s like that first time, the intoxication slowly flowed through her veins and left a burning heat inside of her that ached terribly for his touch. But he did nothing, he simply placed the tokkuri back on the tray before picking up two armguards like the one that she had worn before.
Kagome tried to summon her powers, but nothing happened; Sesshomaru placed both of the armguards on her before reached out for a blue silk cloth on the tray and covered Kagome’s eyes with it. “Stop this,” She begged as tears as she tried to stop him, her words were ignored as she was blinded by the cloth and her body screamed for Sesshomaru to take her. Sesshomaru stared at Kagome for a moment…his body was starting to grow hot and hard at the sight that she made. “Do not remove it,” He ordered when Kagome moved to do so, hearing his words make her move determined to do so though.
He frowned when she didn’t listen to him, grabbing the tokkuri again; he sipped a large dose and forced it down her throat again. Kagome forgot about the cloth covering her eyes and grabbed Sesshomaru’s shoulders…hated that she needed him, needed his touch to calm the fire that he started inside of her, that made her ache between her legss, but he did nothing as he forced her to swallow more. Sesshomaru forced Kagome to let him down and got up from the futon to remve his clothes. After he was as naked as Kagome, he sat back down on the futon and forced her head down to his shaft as he moved her so that he was facing her sweet sheath. He started to nibble on her clit, making Kagome cry out in pleasure. “Kagome, I want your mouth on me and if you don’t then I will stop as well.” He told her, moving away from her sheath…the sweet scent of her torture to him.
Tears came to Kagome’s clothes eyes, she wanted this to stop and she wanted to be free of him, she wanted her body to stop craving his touch. But her body’s needs won over those of her mind and heart; she took Sesshomaru’s shaft in hand and started to pump it. Inside she hoped that that would be enough for him, “Your mouth, Kagome.” Kagome cringed at what she was about to do.
Sesshomaru savored the feel of Kagome’s hot satin mouth on him, making him harder than before, savoring the feeling for a moment more, he gave Kagome her reward for doing as she was told. Kagome pulled Sesshomaru out of her mouth and started to lick, and kiss him when she felt his tongue enter her, making her moan her pleasure. “Do you want more, Kagome?” He whispered to her as he took the tokkuri and poured some of the aphrodisiac onto his hand. He rubbed it into her skin and started to finger Kagome, Who couldn’t control her body or her voice.
She felt disgusted with herself for being like this, she had started to impale herself on his fingers and cried out at the pleasure she was getting from it. But after the fifth orgasm, he took his fingers away, making her cry out from the loss and the emptiness that was quickly taking its place. “Are you beginning to understand, Kagome? Women, demon or human are nothing, in this realm they are nothing, but to be used for the pleasure of the men. Women are to be used to give birth to the next generation…give birth to the future, but they do not change the future or the paths that their men will take.” Sesshomaru whispered into her ear when he moved her around to sit into his lap.
He removed the cloth, to see defiant ocean blue eyes that stared back at him with tears. “If that’s true…then what about our daughter? Will my fate as your whore become hers with another man? Do you want her heart and spirit to die in a harem lie your own? Well, Sesshomaru?” Kagome asked before he crashed his lips into hers, taking her in a savage kiss and moving her body so to impale her with his own.
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When Mizuki reached him, he picked her up and gave Mizuki a small, but bright smile for her hard work. Mizuki went into a giggle fit at the sight of her father’s smile like she always did, knowing that her father did that only for a rare few. “You did very well, my little Moonlight.” He said to her before kissing her forehead when he noticed that her eyes were beginning to close in slumber.
Kagome watched Mizuki and Sesshomaru, feeling pride that her little girl was crawling, but she felt something else as well. It was disappointment. This showed Kagome how much her daughter felt for her father, and how Kagome couldn’t leave this place. Walking over to Sesshomaru, Kagome took Mizuki from him, and smiled a sad little smile at her daughter’s sleepy face, a sad little smile that had not gone unnoticed by Sesshomaru. “What’s wrong, Kagome? Are you not proud of our daughter for crawling?”
“No, I’m very proud of my baby, but I’m sad too.” She whispered before moving away from Sesshomaru to take Mizuki away for a much needed nap, knowing that Sesshomaru was sure to follow her. They walked in silence as they walked to his rooms. Placing Mizuki on the futon, Kagome lied down with her little girl and watched the sleeping face of her child. “Why are you sad, Kagome? Are you not content with the life that you now have?” Sesshomaru asked, he didn’t understand why she would be unhappy. She was immortal, she was his concubine and she would forever live a life of comfort for the children that she had and would give him.
With a sigh that passed her lips, Kagome looked at Sesshomaru with cold eyes. “Because Sesshomaru…you are killing me.” She whispered softly as unshed tears started coming to her eyes. “What do you mean?” He didn’t understand…he was killing her? How? She was immortal now, how could he be killing her when he wasn’t cutting her head off?
“You are killing my soul, I’m trapped in this damned harem and I can’t leave…I want to be free again, I want to be able to choose again.” She said before looking away from him and wrapping her arms around Mizuki. She wanted her freedom; she wanted to be able to choose where to go and what to do. She wanted to be free of Sesshomaru and the choices that her role forced on her. “I see,” Sesshomaru said. This was a conversation that they had had in the past; often in the time when he had taken her body against her will, hoping that it would teach her the importance of her role.
“I’m sorry, Kagome…but I cannot release you from your status of my concubine, it would make me appear weak.” He lied.
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This was the voice that would not be silenced, each stroke of the thread, every note of the melody was her pain and her anger turned into the power that was held from her use. This was her freedom, this was the freedom of her soul…and Sesshomaru as well as his mother couldn’t be able to take it from her. Kagome suddenly stopped; mid-pull of her next note when she was filled with the burning desire that came from that damned aphrodisiac and when Sesshomaru was near her. The question was though, when had Nori slipped her the aphrodisiac?
Her body burned for his touch and Kagome couldn’t resist the moan that an escaped her lips when his arms suddenly wrapped around her and pulled her to him. Her body was on fire when he slowly took the silk cover off of her. “Sesshomaru…a word, please?” She said, her core becoming wet from him playing with her breasts. Sesshomaru released Kagome from his arms, though he didn’t want to.
The smell of the sweet honey between her lovely thighs called to him like the sound of her music had. It was odd, because the more time that he got to be around his little concubine, the more it seems like she was becoming a drug to him and the effects were quite…pleasant.
He had bedded many beings before her, and not even his own mate had the same effect as Kagome had on him. Getting up, he moved away from, wanting the space so he could resist the urge to take her right there, though he started to undress as to seduce her. “Sesshomaru, what am I to you?” She asked him in a calm voice that surprised him a little. He looked at her face and into her ocean blue eyes; he knew what she was asking and wondered how much long she would fight her fate. “You are my concubine; you are the mother of my child and the mother of my unborn children.”
Blue fire blazed in her eyes with the lust that was already there from his touch. “Then let me ask my question in a different way…what well, I be to you when I can’t have anymore children? Can I ask you to release then?” Kagome asked, hoping that when she was too old or a pregnancy had been too hard on her, and become barren that he would release her from this hell; if she lasted that long. Sesshomaru looked at her and wondered of what nonsense that she spoke of; she would never become barren to his seed since she was now immortal like him.
“You can’t become barren and even if you did, I would never let you go because of that.” He told her, seeing the fire be washed away with confusion and the lust turned to worry. He wondered what he had said that caused this reaction in her, women who weren’t prostitutes should have feared the thought of being barren, but it seems that Kagome wished to be so. “What are you talking about? One day, I’ll be too old to have any babies.” She whispered, almost as if she was reassuring herself of the fact.
“You’re immortal, Kagome.” He said. Simple, clear, and pure fact with no emotion.
Kagome looked at him, shock had hit her hard and she didn’t know what to say next. What was there to say? What did she have to bargain with? She had wanted to make a deal of how she would stay here in the palace, to raise the children that he was going to fuck into her that night, wouldn’t try to escape or anything so long as he promised that he wouldn’t force her into his bed again. Force her to be his sex toy or his broodmare anymore…but she had nothing now. “Damn you,” she breathed, her voice was quiet that it made Sesshomaru wonder if he imagined it.
Kagome stood up on shaky legs that burned to him between them. She slowly walked to him, fire burning brightly in her eyes, “Why? WHY WOULD YOU CURSE ME WITH THIS?” Kagome screamed at him, tears flooded her ocean blue eyes as she realized that she would likely never be free of him. Sesshomaru was quick to grab her arms and take her to the bed as sobs were ripped through her. She just wanted to be free.
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“I didn’t take you last night.” Sesshomaru whispered, answering the question that came to Kagome’s mind. She looked at him, he had nothing on him like herself and his eyes were golden. “Then why are you here?”
“These are my rooms, I sleep nowhere, but here.” Kagome just looked at him before she looked down at her wrists to see that she was…free. “You wouldn’t be sealed again if you behave and do as you’re told.” Sesshomaru had seen her looking at her wrists and truth be told, he like that she wasn’t bound by them anymore. The fire returned to her eyes and desire rushed through his blood and turned his eyes red with lust. “And what if I don’t, Sesshomaru? What then?” Kagome questioned; the defiance in her voice made his control crumple like the ruin of ancient city.
“Then my mother will have to keep our daughter from you until you do behave and do as you are told.” He said calmly before reaching for her and crushing his mouth to hers in a burning kiss. Kagome fought him, but it was slowly becoming a losing battle until she bit his tongue when he forced it into her mouth. Sesshomaru barely felt the bite, but pulled back nonetheless.
“Then how do I behave, Sesshomaru?” She hissed as he took her into his embrace and forced her beneath him. “Enjoy this…and take my seed into your body. Let it take root and grow into more of our children,” He told her quietly as he pushed two of his fingers into the folds of her flower and began to play with it. She moaned, but continued to try and push him off her; her mind was too unfocused because of what Sesshomaru was doing to her. Her petals slowly grew wet as he played and she couldn’t stop the gasp when Sesshomaru took her right breast into his mouth.
He knew; he knew that he should stop, but his body refused and his will was too weak to the moans of pleasure that he brought from the mother of his child. He knew that he couldn’t control himself when she smelled of fertile and lust…he knew that in that moment that he would have to get Kagome to become to use to him after she was pregnant again.
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Kagome looked at him, holding their daughter like she was the greatest treasure of his life. She had seen a new side of him; Kagome knew that he was happy with their daughter right now…but what about in the future? What if Mizuki did turn out as he hoped? “Why? Why won’t you let us go, Sesshomaru? I want to know,” she whispered angrily; causing little Mizuki to stir for a moment and whimper in her sleep a little. Sesshomaru was quick to soothe her with his back to Kagome; he didn’t want to or knew how to answer her question.
“I can’t and don’t want to let you go, Kagome…you or our children. Your place is here with me,” He told her when he turned to look at her. Kagome stared at him; he looked like the prefect father in that moment. She didn’t know why she thought that, but she did and it made her feel better about Mizuki and the babies that she was pregnant with.
But…”My place isn’t with you, Sesshomaru. I’m meant to be free, I don’t want to be in your golden cage forever and I don’t want to have any more children with someone that I don’t love…please let me go,” she said it so quietly that Sesshomaru almost wasn’t sure that he had hear her, but he had watched her lips more. Sesshomaru looked like he was about to move towards her when the door to his rooms opened and his mother walked in with a sweet smile. “Good evening, Kagome, Sesshomaru. I came to take Mizuki with me for the night,” Nori said happily.
The two parents looked at Nori as she moved towards them, but soon Sesshomaru stood and handed his sleeping daughter over to his mother with reluctantly. Nori smiled at the sleeping child in her arms and wished the two parents good night before leaving with her granddaughter. Sesshomaru turned to Kagome and stared at her for a moment before disappearing with his speed to reappear behind her. “I will never let you go,” he whispered into her ear softly before licking and down her neck.
His hands forced their way into her kimono and cupped her breasts as he continues to lick her neck and then kiss it. Kagome tried to force his hands out of her kimono, but like always he was too strong and too insistence that they continue. Slowly, Sesshomaru took a hand from her breast to open her kimono; he run his hand over her swelling stomach, where their children grew in her before touching her clit. “No, I don’t want this, Sesshomaru.” Kagome protested as she tried to move his hand away as he touched her there. “Hush, Kagome…enjoy the pleasure. There’s no point in fighting it,” he told her before kissing her.
She knew that, but it didn’t make it any easier for her. Her mind screamed at her of how wrong this was as her body screamed of how right it felt to her. Her body and mind warred against each other as Sesshomaru sweetly tortured her with his touch of her breasts and inside her body. She wanted it all to stop, but he had told her that he wouldn’t stop…why wouldn’t he stop?
Sesshomaru at the tears that came to Kagome’s eyes and Sesshomaru tenderly licked them away; her tears didn’t belong there as he gave her pleasure. “I hate you,” Kagome sobbed when Sesshomaru had released her mouth to lick away her tears. She hate this, she hated the lack of control over her body and the pleasure that he forced on her.
But she didn’t hate him; just the things that he did to her.
Sesshomaru looked at her and kissed her as she continued to say it over and over, stabbing him in the heart every time that she did. He didn’t want to hear any more and simply wanted to give her pleasure and take his own from her body.
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Kagome was unaware to the gaze of gold on her until Sesshomaru emerged from the treeline with his catch. She turned and stared at Sesshomaru, wondering if this was going to be like all the times before now. “How are you feeling, Kagome?” he asked as he dropped the deer before walking over to the hot spring. Kagome didn’t answer as he started to strip; she turned away from him.
Being annoyed by her behaviour and actions, he got in and wrapped his arms around her. “What’s wrong?” He whispered into her ear; he wanted to look at him, but she didn’t. “Why did you bring me here?” She asked; she wanted out of his arms, she wanted to enjoy the hot water that she stood in. Sesshomaru looked at her for a moment before letting her go and sitting away from her.
“It becoming more and more clear that you are unhappy with our life. I desire to change that and make you content to be with me,” he stated to her; Kagome turned around and looked at him confused. She turned and saw in his eyes that he wasn’t joking, but stating fact to her, and she didn’t know what to say to that. He wanted her to be content with him? Why? Why did he suddenly care after all this time? “Why do you want me to be content with you?” She asked him, wanting the answer. He looked into her ocean blue eyes and wondered how she could ask him that; she was the woman that warmed his bed, birthed his children and her presence warmed his cold life. He wouldn’t have their daughter without her or their unborn children that were growing inside her, under her heart.
He needed her, but she seemed blind to that.
“Why would I not? You belo-“
“I DON’T BELONG TO YOU, SESSHOMARU! I BELONG TO MYSELF WHEN, ARE YOU GOING TO LEARN THAT?!” She shouted at him, her power close to the surface because her angered emotions and the hurt that she felt. Sesshomaru smell it in her scent and feel it through her aura, but he felt confused by the emotions inside of him that raged at her words. It hurt that she believed that she didn’t belong to him and angered him that she believed she belonged to herself when the babies in her womb said otherwise. “Learn what, Kagome? Even in human society, you would be mine because of the babies in your womb and the power that I would hold as a Lord. So tell me why you think that would change in the demon world? I have told you before that you are mine and that will not change now or ever!”
Kagome stared at him for a moment before getting out of the hot spring and moving to her clothes to get dressed. But Sesshomaru had followed her out and grabbed her from behind; without a second thought she released her power, burning him…but he didn’t let her go. She continued to burn him with her powers, but he didn’t let her go…it was likely he couldn’t let her go and tears came to her eyes as she suddenly started to scream.
Her scream was that of Death taking hold of their heart and slowly ripping it out of their chest; Sesshomaru could almost feel the pain with her as she continued to burn him with her powers. But he didn’t let her go from his embrace; he needed to hold her, to her release all had been hiding inside her. He took the pain from her constant attack of her holy power; he listened to her screamed of pain and smelled her tears in the air. Sesshomaru would give anything in that moment to stop her pain that just continued to escape her. After what seemed like forever, Kagome couldn’t do it anymore…or rather, her body couldn’t.
Choking on her own screams, Kagome tried to calm her breathing, only to feel the bile rise from her throat. Sensing she was going to be sick, Sesshomaru picked her up to carry her over to some bushes and held her hair back as she puked over and over. She didn’t stop until her stomach was completely empty and she could barely stay awake anymore. Seeing that, Sesshomaru lied her down on his kimono before dressing himself. He stared at her as he did so, her body and so was the Kosode that was barely on; he picked up the rest of her clothes before gently picking her up as well.
She was so pale and seemed so fragile in his arms, Sesshomaru hoped that Kagome was alright and that their unborn were alright after their mother’s outburst of emotion. He moved the cloth of her Kosode out of the way and ran his hand on the bare flesh of her swelling stomach; reassuring himself that their babies were fine.
Feeling better about their babies and their health, Sesshomaru carried Kagome away from the hot spring to a cave that wasn’t too far. He would come back for the deer when Kagome was safe and comfortable in the cave.
Sesshomaru did not see anything that he had done wrong, but that was not how Kagome had his actions, his affections for her. She had been pained by it all and yet he didn’t understand why, he had been a caring and affectionate male towards her, more so than any male that he knew of. Had she truly been disgusted by how he taken her body when all other females that he had ever been with had praised him for the caring lover that he was?
How much pain had he caused her in all this time that they had been together?