Chapter 5: Pain

“Hey! Mizuki give it back!” Shouted a boy with black hair that looked to be nine or ten chasing a girl with silver hair, who looked to be ten or eleven and held a wooden sword. “No way, I told you to stop taking my things without asking! And there no way, I would let you touch the sword that daddy gave me, Hajime!” The little girl called Mizuki yelled at the little boy called Hajime. Sesshomaru watched in total bewilderment at the two children, they looked similar to Kagome and him. He wondered if this was something of his future offspring with Kagome, though he was truly surprised to see a little girl, but Hajime was what he planned to name is his first born son, not a runt from the litter.

“Mizuki, Hajime, what are you two fighting about now?” Sesshomaru turned around to see Kagome and himself. Kagome was pregnant, but was far bigger than she was at the moment and he had not changed in another way, but for the smile on his face. Mizuki run over to them, showing him her ocean blue eyes. “Hajime took my sword again, mom, daddy and after I asked him not to several times.” The girl complained with a pout. Sesshomaru watched as the smile on his face turned into a frown and was directed at Hajime. “Hajime, that is not the behaviour that I expect from one of my sons. You have your own sword; I see no reason to why you must take your sister’s sword. You are to tell your sister that you were in the wrong to take it and say that you are sorry, am I understood?”

“Yes, Father.” Hajime said just as Sesshomaru woke up from the dream. He looked at Kagome, asleep in his arms and her swollen abdomen moving with their child’s kicks; Kagome groaned in her sleep. The child’s kicks were interfering with his mother’s rest again, Kagome loved it when their child kicked her when they were awake, but hated how it was hard for her to sleep with the kicking. Sesshomaru knew what to do to stop their child, the baby always kicked stopping with they were having a breeding session or when Sesshomaru rubbed Kagome’s abdomen and kissed it as well.

He didn’t know why, but it calmed their child when he did so and it calmed him as well when he was in a bad mood or the minor Lords had annoyed him with stupid things. Kissing his child through its mother’s skin calmed the baby and made him happy for some reason. “I wish to see you soon, my son.”

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Kagome sat in the music room and some paper and ink so to write a song at Sesshomaru’s mother’s request, started playing the Koto like always. The music that slept within the instrument awake with her touch, the silence room pulsed with every note that she play. Her baby was calm as she played like it wished to hear the music that its mother played, the baby would kick when she would stop to write down the notes for the song, clearly telling its mother that it wanted more of the beautiful music.

Kagome was so lost to the music and the song writing that she didn’t even notice when Sesshomaru and Sakura had entered and sat down to listen to her play. Sesshomaru listened to her play, lost to the music like his child was, he had never heard something that was so raw and beautiful at the same time, it was like it was her music mirrored her emotions, telling him of the depths of her fear and worry as well as her joy and happiness for their child; Sesshomaru felt like her music was meant for the god’s alone. Sakura lend against Sesshomaru, her jealousy and hatred for Kagome and her talent hidden behind a blank face. She saw that Kagome played with her eyes closed, opening them only when she turned to write down the notes, never noticing that they were there.

But they both with amazed and in awe of her musical gift.

Watching Kagome’s every move, she slipped her hand into Sesshomaru’s Sashinuki Hakama to take hold of his shaft. Sesshomaru glanced down at Sakura, annoyed that she would do this when Kagome was play, but didn’t stop her from continuing, he clearly needed to punish his mate for her attempts to get him hard for her when all he wanted was to listen to Kagome’s playing. Kagome continued to play unaware of the sexual act going on in front of her as the two were silence.

Sesshomaru wondered where she learned to play as he listened to her, it was more alive that musical instrument that he had ever heard. “Oh,” Kagome breathed at a suddenly powerful kick that started a storm of kicking as she placed her hand on her pregnant belly, Kagome couldn’t help, but smile and giggle for she knew what the endless kicking meant. Her baby wanted her to go to Sesshomaru. But she was surprised at the sight before her when she opened her eyes, she didn’t expect to see Sesshomaru there and with Sakura’s hand down his pants either. With a blush and suddenly blank face, she grabbed her notes calmly, got up and walked out as she suddenly remembered her place as Sesshomaru’s Whore and broodmare, and that her child wasn’t hers to keep.

Sesshomaru stared at the door, shocked by the suddenness of Kagome’s face becoming so blank like his own and the loss of her smile again. He stared at the door, willing Kagome to return though he knew that she wouldn’t.

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Kagome walked into her previous rooms, feeling tired and wishing that her baby would stop kicking her for once. She knew that her baby wanted its father, but Kagome was in no mood to be in his rooms, let alone look at him. She had been reminded of her place here, that she lived her life now as Sesshomaru’s Whore and broodmare. Tears came to her ocean blue eyes as she realized the most painful thing of all, that all the children that she would give birth to would be raised by Sakura and that she was most likely to never be allowed near them, let alone hold them at least the once.

It cut into her heart, placing her song notes on the desk in one of the rooms; she went to the futon to lie down and didn’t touch her pregnant belly anymore. She wound be able to stand it, she had been building a bond with her child for no reason. She had fallen in love with the little life growing within her womb and for what? for her baby’s father to cut that bond, that love destroyed when she gave birth to her child. Kagome couldn’t help, but hope that she died in childbirth because she knew that her soul would die if her baby was taken from her. She glanced at her arm, the armguard no longer there…but she knew that there was no point to trying to escape with her baby when she didn’t know how she would care for it as she rested to Kaede’s village.

Closing her eyes and falling asleep, her tears did not stop though…it was like the sadness within her could not be contained by sleep.

oOo

Sesshomaru returned to his rooms, tired and eager to taste Kagome’s sweet flesh, as well as wishing to as her, why she had left so suddenly earlier, was shocked when he saw that Kagome was not in his bed or anywhere in his rooms. Panic and fear clawed through him at this knowledge; there was no scent, but his, Kagome’s, and his mother’s most loyal servants. He roared his emotions for all to hear, his eyes turned red with the rage that Kagome and his child was gone and possibly in danger.

He turned to the doors and ripped them apart in his rage to see his mother and the servants waiting there to see what was wrong with him. “Sesshomaru, what is wr-” She couldn’t smell Kagome in his rooms, her scent was there, but it was old and it explained her son’s rage and red eyes. She turned to the servants her own eyes were red from her own rage and fear. “GO! NOW! KAGOME IS GONE! FIND HER OR IT WILL BE YOUR LIVES THAT PAYS FOR HERS!” The servants scattered throughout the harem and the palace, looking for Kagome and hoping that they wouldn’t die. Sesshomaru and his mother left the palace along with the guards to look for Kagome and to kill those that took her from them.

No one would be spared from their rage and wrath for their loss of Kagome, for to take her and his child from Sesshomaru’s possession warranted the most painful death and for those that harm Kagome in anyway…hell would be heaven on earth for them. “What enemies would go after Kagome, my boy? We can make a list to see who had Kagome.” His mother said.

“…there’s too many to check them all,” He muttered.

Kagome slept in her rooms, her child still kicking her for its father and her tears still flowing. The noise outside her rooms didn’t reach her in her slumber at all, and the servants never checked within her rooms for her. She was safe from everything in her rooms, in her sad little slumber.

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Kagome awake the next morning in her rooms, she had hoped that everything had been a bad dream and that she was back in the future with her family or with Inuyasha that she was pregnant with his child instead of his brother’s. She got up from the futon and changed her clothes before leaving to go and eat for the child inside her. She walked, unaware of the shocked stares that she received from the servants that she pass by them, her sadness left her unfeeling of anything, but pain that was devouring her from the inside out.

Some of the servants had enough sense to notice that she was heading to the dining hall in the harem to eat. But as the servants went to get food prepared for her and tell their Lord and Lady that Kagome was found, they noticed that Kagome didn’t touch her pregnant belly at all. They wondered if she was alright or not.

Sesshomaru and his mother were so happy when they heard that Kagome had been found alive and unharmed. They returned to find Kagome had finished eating and returned to her previous rooms. Sesshomaru destroyed the door to her rooms, startling Kagome for a moment before she found herself in Sesshomaru’s arms. “Lord Sesshomaru, you should let me go before my breast s-” The warning had come too late; Kagome’s breasts began to release their milk, soaking her kimono and Sesshomaru’s. Sesshomaru didn’t care though, Kagome and their child was safe and well.

Sesshomaru’s mother was crying out of happiness to see that Kagome was well and safe, and back where she belonged…in her son’s arms. Sesshomaru placed Kagome on the futon and shooed his mother out before turning to face Kagome. Making Kagome lie down on the futon before he removed her clothes, he was a little surprised that Kagome didn’t complain and tell him that he didn’t need to rip her clothes from her body like usual.

He started to rub and kiss her swollen abdomen, to which Kagome also didn’t respond to it at all. She didn’t see a reason to stop Sesshomaru, this was his child and she was nothing, but the container…the walking womb for his child. Tears came to her eyes as she resisted the urge to touch her pregnant belly, to touch the child that was never hers to begin with. Kagome knew that Fate was playing with her life and laughing at her from afar; she didn’t want this life…she could handle being Sesshomaru’s Whore, she could handle being his broodmare, she could handle never being with Inuyasha, but she couldn’t handle never playing a role in her child…Sesshomaru’s and Sakura’s child’s life beyond that of the container.

Sesshomaru smelled Kagome’s tears and sorrow, he looked at her…her face was blank of emotion, but for the tears that flowed freely. He sat up and stared at Kagome, the dead look in her ocean blue eyes, he didn’t understand what was wrong with her. Where was it? Where was the life and spirit that burn in those eyes? He took her bare breast into his mouth, to suck the milk from her body, in hopes to get some kind of reaction from her…but still nothing.

He got up and walked out of the rooms, leaving Kagome on the futon as he went in search of his mother. Kagome stared at the ceiling for a moment before she moved under the blanket; it wouldn’t be good for the baby to be cold from the air.

Sesshomaru returned soon with his mother and the physician, Kagome was asleep with they entered and was startled when the blanket was pulled from her body and her legs were spread apart. The physician started his usual painful probing from her core that was followed by the normal smelling and licking of it as well as examining Kagome’s entire body with rough and uncaring hands, Sesshomaru’s mother was shocked when Kagome did nothing to stop the physician and just laid there as the physician did his work.

“There’s nothing different with the baby that I can tell, beside that one thing that different about it. As for Lady Kagome, her health is fine…she may have just gotten adapted to life here, after all she may just be letting her body prepare for the birth next month.” The physician’s words did nothing to calm the mother and son down though. They were still worried, Kagome was not the type of person to be like this and they wanted her to return to normal.

If only they knew that the physician’s words were total bullshit.

oOo

Sakura was in a great mood she hadn’t seen the Whore at all since she has serviced Sesshomaru. It was quite nice to know that she wouldn’t run into the Whore and could go anywhere she wanted without worry again. She was in the mood to have a heaven session with Sesshomaru and went to his study to do service her mate, she was quite unhappy with what she found though.

Sesshomaru wasn’t there in his study and looked like he hadn’t been there for days; Sakura went to Sesshomaru’s mother, knowing that the old bitch always knew where Sesshomaru was. “Where is my mate?” Sakura growled when she found the old bitch, after running around the harem, looking for the demoness. “Sesshomaru is at Kagome’s side, he’s worried about her and the baby.” Sesshomaru’s mother said; the worry for Kagome was eating at her, Kagome would sleep continuously and only wake up to eat, release her body’s waste or letting Sesshomaru touch her. Kagome seemed so dead since they found her a week ago, there were always tears in her eyes and she had stopped touching her pregnant belly.

“He’s with the Whore? Why? She and the baby are healthy; he doesn’t need to be around the Whore when he has me.” Sakura hissed; the baby was fine and there was no point to worry about the Whore when her place there was to giving birth. There was no reason to care if the Whore was mentally well so long as it didn’t affect her fertile and ability to give birth, it was her duty to raise Sesshomaru’s children…though she planned to turn his children into her loyal tools that would obey her without question. “Watch your tongue, Sakura! I know that you think that you are above Kagome, but you’re not. Kagome is the one that is above you, she is the one who holds Sesshomaru’s child within her bo-”

“But I will be the one to raise Sesshomaru’s children with him, and I’ll make sure that she wouldn’t be allowed near them.” Sakura cut in, she couldn’t wait for the baby to be born. Kagome would nurse the baby until it was weaned and then it would belong to her and the Whore would never be near her baby again. The smile on Sakura’s face pissed Sesshomaru’s mother off and decided to punish Sakura for her stupidity with a whip across the face.

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Inuyasha walked into the village with Miroku at his side, they had followed the different rumours about pregnant women being taken and returned after giving birth in front of a pregnant priestess that looked like Kagome. They asked around until they found one of the pregnant women that had been taken. “What do you wish of me, good monk?” The woman asked, eyeing Inuyasha with fear. She didn’t want to be taken again.

“We are looking for a priestess like the one that watched you giving birth…did you hear the priestess’s name?” Miroku asked; Inuyasha held his breathe, hoping that the pregnant priestess was Kagome, but also hoping that it wasn’t her. “…I heard the demoness call her Kagome, after the priestess saved my little Chika, a silver haired demon that the priestess called Sesshomaru came in.”