Chapter 16: Insanity 

It was instantaneous for him. The world shook in acknowledgment. He felt as if he could at last breathe once more.

Kagome had returned.

“Sesshomaru?” the demon slayer questioned but he ignored her. He knew that she had returned, he needed to go to her. His soul longed for him to take her into his embrace once more. Everything screamed inside of him in demand. The darkness that surrounded them turned red to his gaze. It was sharp and clear like his desire.

His chance had finally come and hope bloomed with it. She had returned to the mortal realm.

It was overwhelming to think that he could see her again. To touch her, to hold her and beg forgiveness for the pain. He knew now how much pain he had caused her; he had to help her heal.

It was the only way that they could ever move on. 

He would beg. He would grovel. He would burn in hell for an eternity to be forgiven by her. He would do anything for her forgiveness and for one last kiss.

People could think him a coward for dying for that single kiss.

He would not care. They were worthless little insects to him. They wanted her for themselves, to ensure that they would have a future. He would kill them all before letting them touch one hair on her head.

Blood would take flight by his claws.

“Sesshomaru, what is it?” the demon slayer questioned.

He glanced at her and she shied away. The fear flowed in her like water flowing in a river. it was so different from the warrior that had helped to kill Naraku. The fear in her told him so much. More than she would want him to know. But then he had always seen more than people had wanted him to.

It was expected that a lord understood all.

Kagome had been full of cracks like a sake cup, chipped over and over. The chips would make cracks and then the cup would simply break. He would not let that happen to her again. He would stop her if she tried. 

“It’s Kagome,” he said before he disappeared into fast blur.

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Kagome stared at him for a moment before she couldn’t take anymore. Forced to turn away, she looked up at the night sky. the stars were so bright and lovely on a breathtaking canvas. It had been so long since she had last seen them. They filled her with something.

Her chest tightened as tears came to her eyes. Everything was burning. She was doing that, burning the world around her.

She was so full of pain, more than when she had been in Hell. She hadn’t meant to come back to Earth, she wanted to die. She wanted it all to stop, the pain, the emotions, the memories. They wouldn’t; they just continued to torment her endlessly.

Kagome turned back to look at him. Inuyasha was a mess…to the point that Kagome didn’t know how he was still alive. 

His body was covered in open wounds and his arm was missing. It was like she stared at Sesshomaru as his foreleg had been cut off. She had broken the older brother when his home had burned around them. Now it seemed she had somehow broken the younger one too.

The air grew claws when it reached her lungs at the thought. They felt bloody and messy inside her chest. The pain was almost too much.

It reminded her of when she had given birth.

Her hands moved to her stomach at the thought. All her babies had grown inside her, untainted by their father’s poison. A poison that seemed to have inflicted their uncle now as well. They were immune to it and she envied them for it. It was a sickening realization for her.

How could she be a mother? She was ruined and no one saw that. She was a machine, broken beyond repair yet people continued to try and replace parts. 

They didn’t work. They helped for a moment, made her feel better until they stopped working. The parts didn’t fit right, too big, too small, they poked at her in the oddest of ways. People would try to take them out but it was useless.

She was hollow inside with nothing. The only things within were the pain and poison that endlessly tormented her.

“I’m sorry, Kagome…I’m so sorry,” Inuyasha whispered like it would help.

The fire that refused to consume her flesh and bones spread. It spread rapidly, devouring the trees and grass like a starving dog finally given food. Despite that, it was hesitant with Inuyasha like a lioness. It was waiting for the right moment to devour him as well. He was in danger because of her. Still he didn’t leave, didn’t even seem to notice the fire. Inuyasha just continued to stare at her with those lifeless eyes. He couldn’t see her though.

Where had the fire gone? His eyes had always burned with the most beautiful of flames. She couldn’t find it in the gold.

It was then that she felt like there was another set of eyes on her. Panic touched her then because she knew there was only the two of them. She knew what it meant without words. Knew it to be a bond that she hadn’t desired to have.

Sesshomaru was coming for her.

The world was a cage that he controlled. She could run but he would find her in any corner of it. All she could do was run. “Inuyasha, we need to run.”

“Sorry…I’m so sorry. Please forgive me, Kagome…I’ll kill him and his spawn, I promise.” His words were the mutterings of a pained man. Still his words made her blood run cold as ice despite the flames.

He wanted to kill her children.

The babies that she had grown within her, that she loved more than anything despite their father. She couldn’t understand why he would want to do that. She was so shocked that she even voiced it, “Why?”

“Sesshomaru’s a monster…his brats would be too. Their very existence will simply torment you,” he muttered as his hand ran through his hair. “You have suffered enough because of my…my failing you.”

“They’re innocent,” she told him. Her hands turned to fists at the thought of her best friend killing her children. Their little bodies ripped to pieces, blood staining their beautiful black and silver hair. Mizuki’s happy eyes lifeless with death. “They played no part in their father’s actions. They were just the outcome of them.”

“It’s why they need to die. They’ll torment you, forever reminding you of what he did to you,” he hissed. His hand twisted in his silver hair, pulling it as he did. It looked painful to her.

“And if I love them?” She asked.

He looked convinced that she couldn’t possibly love her babies. They were the most important people in her world, she wanted to die for their sake as much as her own.

So much so that their safety overrode her fear of Sesshomaru. She could feel him getting even closer to her.

“It’s impossible. How could you love the spawn of the one that raped you?”

“Because my love for them transcends anything I feel for their father. He…and you will never be more important than them,” she whispered.

“I will kill them and Sesshomaru,” he told her fiercely. His eyes told her that he would do anything to accomplish his goal.

He was getting closer to her. Could only be more than a few hundred miles away. Yet all she could think about was the threat to her babies before her. A threat that came from her best friend. “You won’t.”

“I will, I promise you and beg you to forgive-”

“I’ll hate you,” Kagome told him. “I’ll hate you and burn you to death if you even try to harm them.”

He stared at her before he burst out laughing. It was a hysterical laughter that told her, he was no longer sane. Then he was suddenly standing as he stared at her with those lifeless eyes. He moved towards her like one of Urasue’s clay soldiers, without life. “You’re not real.”

“Excuse me?” she whispered before she understood. 

He thought her a delusion of his mind when she was flesh and blood before him. “You’re not real. You’re nothing but a trick of my head. I’ll kill him and his brats before I save the real you, Kagome. I promise.”

She looked down to see his feet were burning in her flames. The skin of his feet were blistering and red as they continued to burn. He didn’t seem to feel any pain from it. She wanted to reach out, to burn him for his promise. 

It would be pointless in the end though. Any pain that she gave him would do nothing to him. “I’m real, Inuyasha and I will kill you if you try to harm them.”

“KAGOME!”

She froze at the call of her name from behind her. She knew that voice better than she ever wanted to. Terror roared to life within her for her greatest fear had come for her.

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Her back was to him and fire surrounded her. Still, he knew that it was her; how he ached to touch her. She stood there, frozen like a cold stone statue until he took a step closer to her.

She turned and stared at him with such fear. The ocean blue that he loved so dearly was gone. They had disappeared into a deep red that was full of hate. Despite it, he knew that it was Kagome. 

She glowed with bright flames that didn’t burn her. She was naked with the scars of childbirth and his claws still upon her. Need demanded that he touch her as he wanted, take her as he had in the past. That wasn’t possible; she still feared him.

“Kagome…come back to me,” he told her.

She shook her head in refusal and even whispered the word “no”.

He pushed the need away, knowing it would only make it all the harder for them both. “Kagome, please. Come back to me, we’ll fix our problems together.”

“No,” Kagome told him more firmly. She trembled and the earth began to shake once more. “I can’t and I won’t…I wanted to die because of you, Sesshomaru. I still do.”

Her words wounded him greater than any other he had ever heard. He wanted to go to her and erase the pain that she felt. He walked towards her as he spoke. “Why not? Do you not know how I feel about you? I love-”

“DON’T SAY IT!!! DON’T SAY THAT DAMN LIE TO ME AGAIN!!!” She screamed so loud that staggered him. Still, he walked towards her with the intent of never letting her go.

She stepped back, away from him. Her expression told him that she was about to run. But instead she was pushed out of the way by Inuyasha. His brother looked at him with the expression of an insane creature. His brother was no longer human or demon. 

He had become a true monster.

“YOU DIE TODAY, SESSHOMARU!”

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Ps: I’m sorry for the long wait. There was a lot of problems in the last two weeks and I’m sad to say that you had to wait because of it.